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People are strange, when you're a stranger... [Fri 05 Sep 2003|09:59pm]
[ mood | complacent ]

...faces are ugly, when you're alone. Women are wicked, when you're unwanted. The streets are uneven when you're down. I <3 The Doors!

I tried updated my journal earlier today...and freaking AOL kicked me offline...ruining the whole damn thing! F*ckers!

Anyway...I'm tired of the rain! I want it to stop! It's such a pain in my ass to have to drive when it's pouring. ::sigh::

I've gotta work tomorrow & Sunday. Luckily, I'm off on Monday. w00t! I should be off on Friday & Sunday of this coming week, which will be rad because then I can go to surf expo both of those days. :) I just wish that Cary would give me a buyer's name tag. ::sigh x2::

This coming week should be good. I get to see the hott drummer from ASG on Thursday, plus the always hott Lane, and get to hang out w/ all my buddies from work! Then there's expo next weekend, which is always really cool. I can't wait to see what's happening in the industry. w00t!

Okay...my eyeballs hurt...I'm going to get some sleep. G'nite! xoxox

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ASG rocks my fucking world.... [Wed 03 Sep 2003|08:33pm]
[ mood | excited ]

okay...so maybe it's just their drummer...he's sooooo freaking hott! I went to the Volcom party on Sunday. It was fun! The whole crew was there. Daniel from my Quiet Flight family, Lane (hot as always..too bad he only hits on me when he's drunk), plus sooo many more really awesome people!

I went surfing on Labor Day. I ended up eating lunch with Lane and Scott (Aaron Chang rep...suuuuch a nice guy)....the service sucked royally. The food was good though.

I'm sooo stoked that I get to see the drummer from ASG in like a week! Another Volcom party is coming up...and they're playing! I'm sooo going to flirt with this boy & I don't care who I piss off! As wrong as it may seem, I hope it makes Lane a little jealous.

I'm off on Friday...so I think I'm going to go surfing...we'll see though! I'm out like the werewolves on a full moon! Laterrrrr duuuudes!

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Uh Oh! Spaghetti-O's!!! [Sun 24 Aug 2003|11:42pm]
[ mood | discontent ]

Grrr....I'm still awake...and I have to be at work "on time" tomorrow or else I'll get written up. So freaking gayyy!!! On Saturday, I was 20 minutes late, but we don't even open the store until 8:30 anyway...so, I really didn't see the big deal in me being late. I got there in time to count my drawer and do all the opening stuff. I think my manager just wanted to freaking yell at everyone. I don't really care though...if she tries to fire me, I'll just talk to our GM...who won't let her. Maybe then, I'll get to work nights instead. I'd rather do that anyway...

I was off today. All I really did was sleep. I really enjoy sleeping. It's just too bad I don't have anyone to cuddle with WHILE I sleep. Actually, I could just cuddle with my dog...but it's just not the same...

I have a dreadful feeling that work is going to suck royally tomorrow...It's okay though, because I should be off on Tuesday & Wednesday, so I really shouldn't complain.

I talked to Brodie today. He IM'd me actually. He wanted to know how I was doing, and where I was at. Hello!...I'm online...which means I'm at HOME! Retard! Then he proceeds to ask me for new pictures & to invite me over to his friend's apartment to watch movies. As much as I wanted to go hang out with him...I knew I shouldn't. I really don't want to be hurt again by him...so I'm going to refrain from seeing him for a while.

Okay...I'm going to eat a bowl of cereal..and then it's off to bed...G'nite!

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Grrrr.... [Mon 18 Aug 2003|10:55pm]
[ mood | blah ]

I really miss Brodie. :( This is soooo not fucking fair! I'm lonely...and not just any guy will do...I want it to be "him". No one else compares. This fucking sucks.

I'm off for the next two days. I had better keep myself busy, so I don't have time to think about how lonely I am. It sucks though, because I can't even go surfing for another week. Dammit all to hell.

Appearantly, Sean went to see Social D in LA the other night...and he called me from there and left me a voice mail. Too bad it was all garbled...and I had NO CLUE as to what it was. I'm sooo jealous though. VIP and everything...not even fair. He doesn't even like them....it shoulda been me...

I need to start promoting for the Rufio show in September. I've got everything now...it's just a matter of actually going out and getting all of it done. It will be fun once I get started...I just need a good hard shove to begin.

I've got a few errands to run tomorrow...and then I'll be free for the rest of the day. I think I might go makeup shopping. My brother owes me $200... so maybe I'll get that tomorrow too.

Anyway...I'm over it. <3

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Age Regression [Thu 14 Aug 2003|09:13pm]
[ mood | giddy ]

Last night, I went to Hard Rock to see The All American Rejects play for the taping of AT&T Wireless Presents/MTV thing. They are sooooo freaking good! They've got a lot of energy & interact very well with the crowd. I loved it! I left there feeling like I was in middle school...all giddy & bouncy....I seriously needed to be slapped. It was a good feeling though...

After the show, I went to Melissa's and we just hung out and talked. It was cool talking with her, cuz I just got to know her a little better. It's cool cuz she actually knows what I'm talking about when I tell her about the whole Brodie situation, which most people just don't get. I ended up getting home at about 4am. w00t! I'm a rebel!

I slept in today. No work...and nothing to do...means I got to sleep all day!

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Vanilla Ice Ice Baby...Too Cool Too Cool... [Wed 13 Aug 2003|12:04am]
[ mood | sleepy ]

Last night I went out with Sarah, Christine, and Jessica. We went to Roxy's for Fight Night. It was good times! I drank a lot (for me). Two beers and two shots makes Rox a silly girl.

After leaving Roxy's, we went back to Sarah's. Brodie came over, and we hung out. Yay! I begged him to stay and just cuddle with me...but no dice. He said he had to go, and that he couldn't fall asleep there with me because he had a lot of shit to do the next morning. I guess I understand, but it still made me oh so sad. I just wanted him to stay there and hold me. Nothing sexual, just purely innocent cuddling. I've just felt so alone lately, and for that little while that he held me, I just felt so at ease.

Anyway, he left, and a few tears slipped out of my eyes, and I fell asleep. I woke up this morning, and then I left Sarah's and came home. I want to go see All American Rejects tomorrow at Hard Rock, but I dunno if we can still get tickets. I'm supposed to go downtown with Sarah tomorrow night too....so....we'll see what happens.

I really should be asleep right now. I have to work tomorrow morning. I don't really want to work anymore. I just want to move to Fiji [Tavarua to be exact]...live in a shack...and just surf and hang out.

I'm going to go dream now...G'night everyone!

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$200 poorer...Some new ink...and it was so worth it! [Sun 10 Aug 2003|06:07pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

Ouch...it hurts to sit here...

I got more ink on my back. It's beautiful! I got three plumerias with leaves and vines underneath my swallows & star. I will admit that this tattoo actually did hurt. The swallows and the star didn't hurt...but these flowers hurt. I think it was because it's sooo low on my back. Oh well, it was worth it! I can't wait until it's fully healed. The colors are going to be BEAUTIFUL! It took three hours to do. I'll post a picture of it...as soon as i get one...

That's all that is really new...I'm going to Wally-world to get some stuff.

Ciao bellas!

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Ness is my god... [Thu 07 Aug 2003|06:57pm]
[ mood | blah ]

I love Mike Ness. I would definitely have his babies....I don't care that he's old...he is the quintessential man.

I hate stupid ricers...stupid hondas.

Work sucked.

I talked to Brodie. He couldn't talk long. I hung up on him as he was saying "bye". I'm so over it...again.

I've got a lot of things to do tomorrow. I'm off. w00t! It's not going to be a fun day...I'm not looking forward to it.

I'm going to take a nap now. This update sucks...

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What dreams are made of.... [Tue 05 Aug 2003|09:29pm]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

I've come to the conclusion that my dream man is:
*blue eyes
*jet black hair
*straight white teeth
*full sleeve tattoos (at least)
*6'0 tall
*romantic yet oh so tough
*has a classic car/kustom car
*tells me the truth even if it hurts me
*on-time & dependable
*isn't afraid to love
*enjoys the simple things in life

Yeah...I'm going to be single for the rest of my life!

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Lazy Day [Sun 03 Aug 2003|03:53pm]
[ mood | lonely ]

I should've went surfing today...or atleast gotten more tattoos last night. Oh well...

Lately, I feel very lonely. I think I know who I want, but I don't think it's going to happen for a really long time. No one has even asked me out in what seems like forever...well...no one I would actually date anyway. Why do I have to be so damn picky??!? Where are all the good guys at? This whole thing sucks.

I have to work tomorrow. Maybe I'll get more tattoos after work. I haven't really felt like driving out to the beach to go surfing lately. I miss surfing though. I'd probably feel a lot better if I'd just get out into the water. The drive sucks though. ::sigh::

I miss Brodie.
I miss Scott.
I miss being happy.

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It's raining...it's pouring... [Fri 25 Jul 2003|09:07pm]
[ mood | blah ]

Sometimes....I really love the rain.

I had to work today. We were kind of busy. I got in trouble for leaning on the counter. I wasn't really "leaning" though...It was more like I just had my arm on the counter. It's okay though...I just made a joke and my boss forgot he was supposed to be mad at me for "leaning" (even though I really wasn't leaning).

After work, I decided to go shopping. I ended up buying this super short brown skirt & a super short camo skirt as well. They're both wayyy hot! Now I just have to find shirts to wear with them...oh...and new shoes...I need to get some new shoes. :)

When I left the mall, it was raining. Instead of waiting for the rain to stop in the foyer of the mall, I casually strolled past everyone and took my sweet precious time walking through the pouring rain. I even jumped into the puddles! I'm such a kid and you LOVE it!

Now I'm home. Dad's watching GI JANE...I'm writing bills. Well...I WAS writing out my bills, but now I'm updating my journal.

I want more tattoos...and I want to be even more tan...and I need to lose a little weight...or get into better shape...I'm very needy and I want a lot. No wonder I'm still single.

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Warped... [Thu 24 Jul 2003|09:56pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

I went to Warped tour today. It was soooo effing hot! It was still fun though. Pepper rocked me hard core, AFI, the Used, Rancid, Yellowcard, Face to Face, plus many many others were really good today. Andrew W.K. sucked...but I already knew that would be the case. I kept getting shot with water guns as I walked past booths. I think someone put something on my forehead, telling everyone with waterguns to shoot me...I dunno...

I saw the alway gorgeous Lane today. He is soooo hott...too bad he's an asshole. All the pretty ones are always assholes. I dunno what's up with that guy. Oh well. I'm over it.

I'm sooo tired now! I'm going to go to sleep. I already took a shower. I'm not even eating. Goodnite everyone! xoxox

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At a loss for words... [Wed 23 Jul 2003|08:11pm]
[ mood | blank ]

I don't know why I'm even writing in here. I don't really have any new news to tell anyone...

Tomorrow is Warped Tour. It should be fun. I dunno what I'm wearing yet. It's going to be hot as balls though, I'm sure of that. It will probably rain too. I don't really care, just as long as I don't get struck by lightning dammit, I just straightened my hair...and I don't want it curly again ;)

I've been IM-ing Scott. He just ignores me. :( Booooo. I sent him a few new pictures though. He DID look at them....but still hasn't talked to me. Oh well. Jon's birthday is in a few days....I should send a card. I dunno if I really should though. ::sigh::

I haven't talked to Sean in about a week now. It just seems like the feelings we had for each other are fading away the longer we're apart. Oh well, I guess that's life. I've had the past 3 days off of work. I have NOOOO clue as to how I managed that. I'm off tomorrow too. Too bad they didn't let me know a little before hand that I'd be off for four days, I could've gone out of town and done something way FUN!...like go to Vegas or on a 3-day cruise. Bastards. J/k.

I guess there's really nothing else. I miss talking to everyone on here. I hope all of you are doing okay. <3 you all! xoxox

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Friday I'm in Love... [Fri 18 Jul 2003|07:04pm]
[ mood | good ]

...Okay...so not really....but whatever!

Today was kind of an odd day. I was off, so I went with my aunt to the flea market. I hadn't been to a flea market in freaking FOREVER!!! I wanna go back on a weekend, when all the little stands and what-not are all open. I bet I could find a lot of cool sh*t there! It's soooo ON!!!

I straightened my hair today. I'm waiting for it to dry to see how it all turned out. ::crosses fingers:: Hopefully, this will cut down on the time it takes me to get ready from now on!

I saw "Pirates of the Carribean"...and I freaking LOVED that movie!!! I wanna go see it again...and again...and again...and...you get the point. I still want to be a pirate when I get old....definitely!!!

I have to work both Saturday and Sunday, but then I'm off on Monday (w00t)...but I have a lot I need to get done, so I won't even get to do anything fun. Boooo! I need to get two new tires put on my car, I need my transmission serviced, I SHOULD get my car professionally detailed (I probably won't though)...and I need to get my windows tinted. It's all going to cost sooo much money!!! Maybe I'll just go shopping instead...hahah!

I need to get the rest of the Harry Potter books so I can finish reading them. I really love those books...God....I'm SUCH A NERDDD!!!

I love my dog....I love my family....I love pirates...I love GTOs...and I love all of you!!!!
Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it. It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk anything, you risk even more.-Erica Jong

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Santeria [Sun 13 Jul 2003|08:37pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

It's a good thing I don't practice Santeria....because if I did....Brodie would be in a whole world of pain right now.

I called his cell phone...and I'm pretty sure that "the little mexican boy"...aka his girlfriend answered. It's a good thing that I blocked my number before I called...otherwise, I'd have to tell her EVERYTHING that went on the other night...and I wouldn't have felt bad about doing it either. I really hate when assholes fuck with my head. I'm livid right now. I'm still debating whether or not I'm going to change my number...AGAIN. If I do...I'm NOT giving it to that stupid fucker. GRRRR!! I hate this!

I'm going for a drive....

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X O X O ex.... [Sun 13 Jul 2003|01:26pm]
[ mood | confused ]

Tuesday night, I hung out with my ex, Brodie.
We drank and just hung out with some of his buddies from his car club.
It was really nice hanging out with him.
I'd forgotten how much I'd missed the asshole.
I stayed the night there...we just kind of cuddled on the couch together.
He asked me the oddest question though...
He asked "Have you ever thought about the two of us getting back together?"

Of course I've thought about it.
Not recently, but I'd thought about it.
I told him that we could talk about this later, but not right now.

Mind you, the boy is still technically with the psychotic bitch girl he's been with for the past two years.
I don't know if he was being serious or if he was just playing with my head, I'm not going to dwell too much on it right now.
I'm semi-sane now, and I'm not going to ruin that for this boy again.

It's pouring right now. I feel like going back to sleep.
I need to do my laundry.
I want more tattoos.
I'm done.

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Crispy [Mon 07 Jul 2003|09:06pm]
[ mood | peaceful ]

I went surfing today.
I put on sunscreen on my face, but that's it.
My shoulders are a little CRISPY...
It's okay though, cuz it'll just turn into a tan by Wednesday.
The surf was fun.
I feel at ease with everything around me right now.
I love going surfing!!!

Sean pissed me off today. I called him on my way home from the beach because I had heard an advertisement on the radio for "Pirates of the Carribean"...and it made me think of him.
He says I just use him to pass the time when I'm driving.
It's not true...I just wanted to talk to him.
Can I help it if I'm ALWAYS driving somewhere?!?!!!

I wanted to ask Sean if I could come see him sometime in August, because at the rate he's going, I don't think he's going to come down here to Florida. I didn't get to ask him though, because when he pissed me off, I hung up on him. :x Opps! I need to work on my temper. Fo'sho!

Booooo! I have to work tomorrow. I think I'm off on Wednesday though! w00t! I'll probably go surfing again. That's the plan anyway....

This post is dumb....I'm done.

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Ahoy matey!!! [Sat 05 Jul 2003|10:55pm]
[ mood | excited ]

I'm soooo EXCITED!!!!
"The Pirates of the Carribean" opens this week!
I can't wait!!!
Go see it bitches...or else....

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Independence Day.... [Fri 04 Jul 2003|06:24pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

The fourth of July can suck my butt!!!

Have you ever just felt "LOST"? I am sooo lost right now. I have no clue as to what I want to do with my life or where I want to be. I'm getting older, and I need to figure all this sh*t out...pronto!

I'm not going to do anything tonight, except sit at home and read my book. Yay! I'm such a dork!

I hope all of you guys have a very HAPPY 4TH OF JULY!!! Have fun! & be safe!

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work all day... [Thu 03 Jul 2003|08:00pm]
[ mood | blah ]

*Had to work today*
*Brodie called me four times, and never once thought to leave a message*
*When I'm at work...I can't answer my cell phone*
*He hasn't called me back yet*
*I want to know what in the hell he wanted*

*Went shopping today*
*Bought a pale pink polka-dot dress,black top,& pale pink pinstriped skirt*
*I'm such a girl!*

*Called Sean*
*He didn't answer*
*He was supposed to call me yesterday, but didn't*
*I didn't leave a message*
*I think he's over it*

*I miss everyone*
*Katie, Adrian, Bush, Selena, Laura, & everyone else I used to talk to*
*I miss talking to Scott*
*I think he hates me*

*This update is dumb*
*I'm done*

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